Here is the thing. It doesn’t always happen in a hot jolt, like electric, like lightening- the liking. Sometimes it comes in a soft knowing, a sweet surety- here is safety, here is calm, here is peace, here is laughs tumbling freely without wondering if my cackles are too loud, here is me eating a hearty meal without wondering if there are bits in my teeth because I know you wouldn’t care if there was and you are disgusting and lovely enough to say “come here babe let me get that for you” with a kiss, here is me sitting down and not sucking in, or positioning myself just so, so my stomach doesn’t act like a stomach should, here is me exhaling with a belly full of food eaten happily, completely, eagerly, in front of you, here is me pushing my waist band below that blushing bubble of joy and carbs, here is you rubbing it. Here is you both, us both, exposing your softest parts, your bruised parts, your sweetest parts, your meanest parts, bit by bit, and each piece of knowledge being tucked away for safekeeping, like here, put it in my pocket if it gets too heavy, put it in my hand so I can hold it, rub it on your lips so I can taste it. Often in the hot flash of affection and attraction, in the immediacy, some intimacy is lost, in the quick assertion of “you are mine”, there is a neglect of mining for the heart, the knowledge, the whys, and then it is too late, you are stuck with a bold declaration with no whys to weigh it down, give it depth, purpose, and so it is in danger of floating up into the ether with no direction, to get lost, to thin, fly with the wind.
The reading now is GREAT, just added open water to my list to check out. And this part: "Often in the hot flash of affection and attraction, in the immediacy, some intimacy is lost, in the quick assertion of “you are mine”, there is a neglect of mining for the heart, the knowledge, the whys, and then it is too late, you are stuck with a bold declaration with no whys to weigh it down, give it depth, purpose, and so it is in danger of floating up into the ether with no direction, to get lost, to thin, fly with the wind."
This is absolutely beautiful writing. Love love love to read descriptions of what falling for someone can really look like - too many people out there sabotaging good shit just cos of misdiagnosing a lack of that jolting feeling (which can often just be your literal nervous system/muscle memory reacting to something familiar but not necessarily good) as lack of "spark". Of course there has to be that obvious initial connection, but a beautiful slow burn stemming from there, imo, is so much more rewarding than what people seem to pass for this non-negotiable spark. Slow spark!
I love the summaries! We need to go back to talking endlessly about media on social media to be honest. I loved this, the poetry of your writing is so beautiful to me, so much so that I have certain paragraphs from your books and stories memorised! Love to you and your mind while you work on your projects x
Slow-burn (the liking)
The descriptionssss!! Descriptions are really made rich with similie
The reading now is GREAT, just added open water to my list to check out. And this part: "Often in the hot flash of affection and attraction, in the immediacy, some intimacy is lost, in the quick assertion of “you are mine”, there is a neglect of mining for the heart, the knowledge, the whys, and then it is too late, you are stuck with a bold declaration with no whys to weigh it down, give it depth, purpose, and so it is in danger of floating up into the ether with no direction, to get lost, to thin, fly with the wind."
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Love your reviews!
Love to know what you read/listen/watch but love your writing even more. Thank you Bolu
This is absolutely beautiful writing. Love love love to read descriptions of what falling for someone can really look like - too many people out there sabotaging good shit just cos of misdiagnosing a lack of that jolting feeling (which can often just be your literal nervous system/muscle memory reacting to something familiar but not necessarily good) as lack of "spark". Of course there has to be that obvious initial connection, but a beautiful slow burn stemming from there, imo, is so much more rewarding than what people seem to pass for this non-negotiable spark. Slow spark!
Before I read I just want to scream yayyyyy😩 it's a been so long
This was flipping beautiful, I’ve missed these 😭😭 and yes please keep up the reviews - I base a lot of my reads/shows on what you recommend!! :)
I love the summaries! We need to go back to talking endlessly about media on social media to be honest. I loved this, the poetry of your writing is so beautiful to me, so much so that I have certain paragraphs from your books and stories memorised! Love to you and your mind while you work on your projects x
Enjoyed this and love you. Excited for the project you are working on.
Love the summaries of the media you’re currently indulging in! Definitely pushing “Open Water” up my TBR because it’s been on there for a minute.